Bulan Dan Bintang

Detik terus berjalan dunia semakin tua

pergi dan datang pergantian manusia semakin jaya.

dalam kebingungan dunia terbahagi dua

kalah atau menang masih ditanda tanya

yang nyata sekarang berpecah-pecah barisan kita

terdampar dibatu karang haluan tiada lemah tenaga

kalau direnung ke zaman lampau berkilauan cahaya

segalanya hidup bergerak akihrat dan dunia

tapi...apakah kita masih mimpi dialam tidak bermakna

itu khayal, khayal kalau usaha tiada.

Dicari, dibongkar seluruh rahsia gemilang

iman, takwa, persaudaraan dan terus berjuang

bukan bekalan hanya bibir dan lidah dizaman mereka

kitab Al-Quran difahamkan, dilaksanakan penuh percaya.

Dibongkar, Dicari mengapa runtuh keagunganmu

rahsia sakti pudar, hilang kembang pun layu

daging dimamah, harta dikejar, dihati takut tiada

kekhilafan bermaharajarela, pada Quran hanya telinga

Detik terus berjalan dunia semakin tua

demikianlah nasib handalan jatuh dilembah hina.

SHUKRI ZAIN, Damai dalam sentuhan.

In conjunction of the coming new year 2011. Remember, Kita didunia hanyalah untuk sementara. Tidak ada ertinya jika kita megahkan our bag Louis Vuitton, our perfume Channel, our car BMW and our huge house. This is because, all we bring to the end is our Iman. Hidup didunia hanyalah sementara. Bersedialah untuk Akhirat.

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Jatuh

Apabila jatuh, kembali lah bangun. If you stay jatuh, nanti senang dipijak orang. Bila kita bangun, kita rasa satu keajaiban yang sungguh menarik.

Tidak ada maknanya if we decide to stay jatuh. Tidak ada maknanya if we decide to give up.

I believe that we fail in the task in hand because, Tuhan sengaja menemukan yang salah sebelum kita tahu yang lurus. Supaya kita lebih sempurna and lebih ikhlas bila masa yang lurus itu datang menjemu di hari kelak.

Tidak ada maknanya jika kita seharian suntuk berbaring di katil. Tidak ada maknanya jika kita seharian meraung. Tidak ada maknanya jika kita seharian mengikut dan melayan perasaan.

Elok kita mencari jalan keluar dari masalah. Elok kita berdoa meminta pertolongan dariNya.

Tuhan tidak akan memberi dugaan jika Dia tidak pasti yang kita boleh bangun selepasnya. Kerana Dia selalu pasti. Kerana Dia yang menentukan apa yang ada, dan tidak ada. Kerana Dia yang Maha Berkuasa and Maha Mengetahui.

[Izati]

Renungan

"Jodoh dan pertemuan semuanya di tangan Allah SWT. Manusia hanya perancang di pentas dunia ini dan skripnya ditulis oleh yang maha esa. Adakalanya, dalam memainkan peranan sebagai pelakon, diberi petunjuk melalui mimpi atau gerak hati. Mimpi memang mainan tidur, tetapi apabila kita melakukan sembahyang Istikharah dan memohon supaya Allah memberikan petunjuk, insya-Allah dengan izinnya kita mendapat petunjukNya. Jika dia pilihan kita, buatlah keputusan sebaiknya. Jika tidak, tolaklah dia dengan baik. Semua yang kita lakukan ini adalah bagi mendapatkan kebahagiaan hidup di dunia. Setelah semuanya diusahakan, berserahlah kepadaNya dan terus berdoa. Ingatlah, nikmat di dunia ini hanya sementara.Nikmat di akhirat adalah kekal selamanya. "

http://djfisau.frenzyfm.my/blog/2010/11/10-petanda-dia-jodoh-kita/

Romantism

Someone asked me recently, in the near future, what would you consider to be the most romantic thing you would want your other person do to you?

I said to the person, it's sufficient that he brings me to the movie, dinner, a walk through the park and occasionally his declaration of love.

Seriously, that is not what I think is romantic. Yes, that would be a cheerful day. Making my heart melt.

This is what I would have said.

The most romantic thing, in the nearest future for me would be for him to write me a song. About me and him. About his feelings towards me. Then after perfecting the song, he signs up for the upcoming BruManch Talentime. He buys me the ticket to the show. Surprising me that he's performing. He goes on the stage, dedicating and performing the song that he wrote to me. After that, I receive a note to go to backstage.

Upon arriving backstage, I see him standing with his guitar holding a big huge card and bouquet of lilies. Telling me that he love me and asks me if i'm willing to be his assistant for the rest of his life.

That would be the lovely thing. :)

I wonder if he remembers that this was his initial plan for his 3rd year studying in London.

[izati]

Perkataan

Perkataan. Words.

Why can't people say the words that are meant to be said? Why do they end up saying the words that are not supposed to be said?

Adakah berkata jujur itu berat bagi kita? Is it that heavy to say what is true? Why is it so easy for us to tell lies? Is it because we fancy our fantasies better that our reality? Is it because we hope that through lies, we can achieve greatness in our lives?

Kata-katamu tadi itu memang menyakitkan. Kata-katamu itu pun telah menjadi panah yang menusuk kejiwaku. Andainya fitnah itu senang dihapuskan. Kamu tahu kah, fitnah itu dilarang. Fitnah itu kejam. Janganlah kamu ungkap, berkata apa yang kamu tidak tahu. Kita kan di ajar, berdiam itu lebih baik daripada berkata yang tidak berfaedah. Lebih baik kita meluangkan masa, fikiran, dan suara kita untuk berzikir dan berdoa kepadaNya.

For know, I choose not to care. For I know, the truth will be on my side. For Allah akan selalu menyebelahi orang yang berkata benar. InsyaAllah.

[Blackbuterfly]

Semuanya adalah takdir

Dalam perhubungan cinta perlu ada keikhlasaan, kejujuran dan kesetiaan. Hati kita dah pun pilih hati dirinya, so subconsciously we feel obliged to make the other happy. To make their heart filled with pleasure and all the happiness in the world every passing day. If they get hurt, we feel will feel awful. Kalaulah kita mencintai hatinya, kita akan menjaga dirinya dengan tulus ikhlas hita kita.

Tapi, if one day it was destined to be apart. Datanglah hari yang penuh dengan kedukaan. Hari yang mengecewakan. Itulah adalah sudah yang tertulis bagi kita. Maka kita akan tentu rasa sia-sia kepada apa yang kita pernah lakukan padanya. Terbuang masa kita mencintai dirinya. Why should we be feeling this way? Kita seharusnya bersabar. Janganlah kita bersedih. Janganlah kita mengecewakan apa yang telah berlaku. Kerana, hanya Dia yang tahu apa yang terbaik bagi hambanya. Dia ada kuasa untuk bagi kita rezeki. Dia juga ada kuasa untuk menarik balik apa yang telah diberiNya. Kita seharusnya bersyukur yang kita telah dibagi kebahagiaan walaupun untuk sementara. Walaupun kita kehilangan dirinya (be it to another person), kita harus mendoakan baginya yang dia akan terus hidup dengan penuh bahagia. Jangan sekali-kali kita hampa. Kita harus tabah.

Cinta itu hanyalah satu perasaan manusia. Ianya semudah pergi seperti ianya semudah datang tanpa diduga. Tanpa kita mencarinya. Tanpa kita mengetahuinya.

Cinta antara manusia tidak akan kekal selamanya. Yang kekal adalah cinta kepada yang Esa. That's why we should love Him first. Pray because of Him. Work because of Him. Live because of Him. He gave us life. He gave us our mother to love us. He gave us our father to protect us. Be thankful to our parents. Be grateful to Allah.

Jikalah kita ditakdir berjauhan dengan insan yang kita cintai, kita harus menghadapinya dengan penuh tabah. Dengan penuh kesabaran. Sebab segalanya ada kebaikannya. Remember, He will not test us, if we can't survive it. Every problem in this world has it's own solution. It's up to us to find it. :)

Kerana semua itu adalah takdir. Kita tidak mampu menolak apa yang tertulis. Kita sebagai manusia mesti berusaha untuk apa yang kita kehendaki. Teruskan kehidupan.

Jikalah itu memang jodoh kita, percayalah, dia tidak akan hilang dari kita. Malah, segala yang kita harungi selama ini adalah untuk mendekati orang yang akan memahami isi hati kita. Insan yang akan menolong kita memenuhi iman kita dan mendekati diri kita dengan Allah. Dialah yang akan menjadi teman sejati dunia dan akhirat. InsyaAllah.

Do not lose hope.

Assalamualaikum.

Izati.

Come save me now.

Destiny. I have faith in you. Please tell me this is for the better of things. Please tell me everything is going to be okay. Everything is going to be fine.

The hero of my life. Come save me now.

innocence

Innocence is a term used to indicate a general lack of guilt.

I want to present the world that I do lack of guilt. I did not do the things that you claimed I did. You have no prove. The saying of the wind does not prove anything. You only listen to the things you want to listen. When in reality the truth that you are searching for have been trying to reach to you. The truth have been presented to you. It's been in front of your eyes. Open your heart. See with your open eyes and open minds.

Stop blaming me for the things that I did not do. For I did not do such things. I did not steal anyone. For I do not steal. The only thing I'm guilty of is leaving my heart in the hands of a stranger. I blame him for making me feel the way I feel right now. The only thing I'm guilty of is touching his bruised lonely heart. I pray that his heart stay with me. For I shall not force. For I do not force.

Listen with your heart, mind and eyes. Stop filtering the the voices of the wind to only the things that you want to hear.

If you are still persistent with your version of truth, I am not afraid to face you. Come meet with me if you dare. I will present you with my truth. I am not afraid of you. I never had. I never will. Come if you dare.

I am now prepared to present the world my innocence.

Jodoh adalah rahsia Allah.

'Jodoh adalah Rahsia Allah. Jika menyibukkan diri dgn hal jodoh, maka itu adalah perkara yg sia-sia kerana tidak yakin dgn Qada-qadar Allah. Tidak yakin makna tidak beriman, nauzubillah. Usah di fikirkan kerana jodoh akan datang tanpa di undang. Tetapi dengan syarat. Hendaklah mencintai Allah dulu, dengan sebenar-benar cinta. Dan jika Allah mencintai mu kembali, itu adalah nikmat yg paling besar dari Nya.kdg2 Allah melambatkan jodoh kita kerana Dia tahu, apabil kita sudah berkawin, kita akan jauh dari Nya.Gunakanlah masa 'single' mu utk mendekati Allah, kerana engkau akan disibukkan setelah kamu berumah tangga. Rugilah manusia yg sering berfikir bagaimana mencari jodoh, tetapi bukan bagaiman memanfaatkan masa terluang utk mendekati Allah. Sia-sia lah Allah memberi kamu masa.'' [NHO, Taken from facebook]

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Diriku diduga, hanya untuk menambah kebolehan diriku. Insyaallah, I'll have my way light up. :) I still have hope. I will not despair. I will not back down.

"=.=

:) bubu. Je vous adore.

Kepastian Cinta

Hargailah wanita yang bernama ibu dan isteri kepada dirimu wahai kaum lelaki.

I was reading this note of a dearest friend of mine after sahur. Hope it will inspire you as much as it did to me.

I was watching tv after sahur. And the show was about a woman who greeted her husband from work with a sour face. She was angry because she feels/thought her husband would marry some other woman. I love the conversation made between the two.

Husband: Senyumlah sikit..

Wife: Saidatina Aisyah ada senyum kah masa Rasulullah kan kawin lagi?

The husband stayed quiet, while the wife repeats the same question again.

Husband: Tiada yang meriwayatkan bahawa Saidatina Aisyah senyum ketika Rasulullah ingin bernikah lagi. Tetapi yang pastinya Saidatina Aisyah menerima hakikat bahawa Rasulullah ingin bernikah lagi.

Wife: Jadi kamu menerima poligami yang di praktis Rasulullah? Kamu ingin bernikah lagi?

Husband: Astaghfirullah. Kenapa kamu curiga amat?

Wife: Kerana aku mencintai kamu lebih dari kamu mencintai aku.

And then a door-to-door salesperson came and the husband went out. The salesperson was selling the books that was written by the husband.

Husband: Kenapa aku mesti membeli apa yang aku punya?

Salesperson: Kadang kalanya kita harus membeli walaupun kita tahu kita yang punya.

Husband suddenly thinks about his wife. Maybe I must also buy her heart punya look on his face.

Husband: Bolehkah kita membeli kepercayaan isteri..?

Salesperson: ooo.. itu kita tidak boleh membelinya. Wanita ini memang lumrahnya curiga. Kita harus menjual apa yang disukainya.

Husband: apa?

Salesperson: Janji.

Then the husband went in and talked to his wife.

Husband: sorry ya. Hanya kamulah yang ada di hatiku.

Wife: *sarcastic* ooo terima kasih yaa. Suweet banget deh kamu. *rolls her eyes*

Husband: Kenapa kamu? Sudah aku serius, kamu bercanda.

Wife: okeh. Aku serius ni. Aku menghargai janji kamu.

Husband smiles and stood from his seat.

Wife: tetapi sorry saja tidak mencukupi. Kamu harus bicara sama KaLila (the girl that the wife was curiga of) bahawa kamu TIDAK akan menikahinya.

Husband: Kenapa aku harus bicara seperti itu? Gila apa? Kamu kejam sungguh ya.

Wife: Semua yang memiliki akan tampak lebih kejam kerna ingin melindungi apa yang dimilikinya.

Husband went out to masjid and talked to the imam.

Imam: Eh aneh banget sih. Kenapa kamu tidak bicara saja sama KaLila.

Husband: Gila!

Imam: Atau kamu masih membuka pintu kamu untuk mencintai.

Husband: Pintu aku sudah tutup!

Imam: Kamu yakin pintu kamu sudah tutup. Kamu tidak kunci barangkali.

Imam: Masih buka sedikit barangkali. Untuk di intip? *smiles knowingly*

Husband: Arrghh!

Imam: Kamu akan sibuk nanti.

Husband: kenapa?

Imam: Kamu memang pandai mencintai tapi tidak pandai memiliki. Kamu akan sibuk nanti kerana akan lahir wanita2 yang cantik dan kamu akan terus mencintai.

[Blackbuterfly]

life

Life is what you make out of it. It's the choices that makes us, Us. With hard work, determination, luck and keredhaanNya. InsyaAllah. Things will certainly go your way. Remember.

[blackbuterfly]

Au cafe de paris

Je garde norte amour pour toujours. Vous me donner la joie. Vous me donner un tel bonheur. Je suis bein avec toi, mon amour. Comme je vous aimes. Oui je vous aimes.

Un jour je te dirai que je vous aimes. C'est mots d'amour. Je le garde pour l'instance. Je vous aime, mon amour.

Toi, le monde. Ce soir je vais me dance avec mon amour. Oui je l'aime. Oui je vous aime.

Comme le premier soir au cafe de paris.

[blackbuterfly]

Awaiting Moment

Wuhhoo.. :)

Wuhhoooo... :)

Wuuuuhhhooooooooo :)

6 days left. Alhamdullilah. Balik Kampung. Finally. After 4?5?Years.

Wuhhhoooooowwwuuuuhhhoooowwuuhhoooowwuuuuhhhhoooowwuuuhhhhooooo

My Stranger

I've never told you this, I do fancy you. You are by far not on the list of my needs right now. But somehow, you've appeared in my life. Showing me, teaching me the ways of life.

Never thought that you would choose me. Never would have thought fate would bring me a person such as you into my life. And for that I am very grateful.

I know, the moment I set my eyes on you I will be safe. I know you cannot do me wrong. I see truth. I am where I belong. Finally I know I am not alone.

I would like to think that we were never strangers, You and I. I would like to think that we've just drifted apart for a while, waiting for the right time to reconcile. You and I, we're meant to be.

You are my stranger. As I am yours.

You had me at Hello. Welcome to my world stranger.

[Blackbuterfly]

Kepastian Cinta

Permintaan hatiku, adalah untuk bersama mu. Diriku hilang bila jauh daripada mu. Diriku, hatiku, akan sentiasa setia kepadamu. Engkau lah pada tempat ku bahagia. Inilah kepastian hati ku.

[Blackbuterfly]

Knock, Knock

Knock- knock, the sound of my door. What can be lingering outside my door at midnight. Scared. I say my prayers as I reach for my door.

I listen carefully for the footsteps or breathings outside. No sound. "Who is it?" I asked. No reply.

I decided not to open.

My phone then started to ring. Ring. Ring.

It was an unknown call. As I picked it up, no one was heard on the other line. I hung up.

Knock, knock goes my door again. I decided to let it go. It is midnight after all. I have to catch up with my sleep.

My phone received a text. It was an empty text, from an unknown number. Scary.

Knock knock. My door sounds again. From my bed I asked "who is it?" No reply

As I approach my door. I say my prayers for it to be something worth while.

I opened the door. I thank the Al-Mighty for His gracious gift.

Lesson of the story, Never be afraid to grab odd opportunities. They are a gift from above. You might not get a second chance. Great things comes in small packages. Be thankful for everything you have and everything you do not have. Everything happens for a reason.

As for what I receive tonight, we'll just reserve that story for another time.

Take care,

Blackbuterfly.

The thing is..

She said that I should just stop writing on this blog. No one reads it anyway. Even if it's being read once a while, all the readers are ever going to read about is complete utter nonsense. Kata-kata dari adik manja ku.

Well, to me writing on this blog is a must. If I do not release the tension here, it will be placed else where. Individuals that surrounds me will suffer the consequence.

Besides that of the topic above, I've decided to change the layout of this site. It looked completely dull before. Now I think it is absolutely suited my moods and for the things I'm about to write in the future.

As for now, as I lay on this bed waiting for the drug to kick in to put me to sleep. I beat you adieu. I've been attacked by the Flu virus.

Till next time.

Blackbuterfly

Say what you need to say

It hurts when you expect something to happen that day, but it doesn't happen. You go out, everything falls into place but by the end of the day, the important thing does not happen. It hurts. It can really mess up you mind and mood.

It hurts having something bottled up in you for so long. It hurts knowing. It hurts hearing. It hurts hoping.

I just wish we could all say what we need to say. So none of us linger in the midst of what if's.

Is it that hard to confess?Is it that hard to say?

Just say what you need to say

-Blackbuterfly-

Thoughts on Examination

Janganlah engkau meninggalkan diriku di awan yang terpilu. Kerana mimpi ku yang di cinta, aku menjadi kembara. Diriku kini bagai camar, melintas laut mencari pohon untuk berteduh.

Kerana diri ku telah menikmati cintamu, aku kembara mengikut lagu dari bisikan hati yang mendamba hati yang paling setia.

Kini diri ku yang dulu dihadiahkan sepasang sayap tidak terlihat lagi. Menjadikan seumpama mimpi yang tersimpan. Jadi rintik rintik hujan, menciptakan awan yang terpilu.

Rintihan didalam puisi ini terhampas lantas, kerna tidak kesampaian hajat yang meronakan. Gelora rindu ku kepadamu. Jangan lah engkau menipu usaha ku untuk mencapai cita-cita ku. Kerna itu lah cinta ku.

Ingin sekali aku ungkapkan isyarat jiwa dengan sempurna supaya kau mengerti. Supaya kau sedari, keadaan ku yang memerlukan mu untuk diriku mencapai impianku.

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