A NIGHT STORY BY ACOUSTIC [Part 2]

She’s not mad at me is she?

Who? Her. She always fancies you ever since she first saw you.

Look at her face. That’s worse than a bull on a rampage. Hahahaha.

What I would have given for that laugh… He’s so serious, yet so funny. Hahaha.

She’s just… so…

Now I really wish he was here… we would have looked so perfectly made for each other…

… lovely… He would have kissed me by now… and hold on to me so tightly…

God, please let this night last longer…

He’s shaking… God… please help me…

You okay? Hm? You don’t look so good. Nah, I’m fine.

…You sure? You’re making me worry…

No, no, don’t be. I’m okay… really…

You know you can alwa- Look!

(boom… boom…)Wow… biggest one I’ve ever seen.

I love the ones that look like a rose. They’re so pretty.

I just love all of them… I remember the first time my dad brought me to a fireworks display.

When was that?

When I was really small… he used to put me on his shoulder and I would hold on to his head. And mom would bring the food to us. She always bring too much. Hahaha.

… You really miss them don’t you?

…

Sometimes I really don’t know how you can live all by yourself. I mean, if I were you, I wouldn’t be able to last even a whole day, let alone 5 years.

Hey, a man gotta survive. That’s what us humans used to be. Survivors in nature.

Still… it must’ve been tough eh?

Yeah… they were good people… You always do stuff together?

We used to go somewhere every weekend… sometimes it’s the beach, sometimes it’s Empire, sometimes it’s just a movie at the mall. My dad used to teach me how to best take care of a woman. What’s that supposed to mean?

I mean, how to attract them, how not to, how to make them hate you, how to love a woman… stuff like that. But even with that sort of education, he and mom were the most perfect of couples. If you had seen them around, you would never think they had been married for long.

But didn’t your mom do anything about what he taught you?

She refused to “play” with him for the day. Hahahaha.

And my mom used to cook loads of great food. I may be the only son, but she cooked dinner like it was for 10.

Did you finish it all? Nah, my dad does. Hahahaha.

And dad used to bring me out to run, and usually drags mom to jog with him.

No wonder you guys never get fat.

And he trains me like I’m a recruit or something. What do expect from a Brigadier with an only son anyway. But I owe these six packs to him though.

They must be great parents.… I never appreciated them much… not until…

It was at Jerudong wasn’t it?

He never wanted to leave mom’s side, no matter where… never came back... and he left me stranded on a boat.

You were lucky the storm didn’t get you. I was lucky I even made it out alive.

Yeah… I remember waiting for you to wake up at hospital.

That cut cost me a marathon. I was worried you know. Really?

Of course! I mean, who wouldn’t be worried when their best friend ended up in hospital?

Over a small cut like that? It was huge!

I wouldn’t know. It’s not nice having bandages all over you leg when you try to jog.

Were you? I thought you had to rest for a couple of weeks.

It feels better to move around rather than lie down all the time.

Why did you want to leave the house anyway? We were like family weren’t we?

Yeah, but I can never leave the house my parents left me, could I? Even if it means living all by myself.

You didn’t have to run away. I guessed your parents wouldn’t let me.

[end part 2]

A NIGHT STORY BY ACOUSTIC [Part 1]

Close your eyes, I want to show you something.

I wonder what he is up to this time. Hee. Kay, but don’t keep it too long. You’re making me curious.

Promise you won’t look.

Yeah, I promise.

Well, close your eyes then. This way.

…

You can look now. Woowwww~! That’s so beautiful! You think so?

Yeeaahhh! I can see everything from up here… look! That’s the island we went to the other day.

I know. I couldn’t believe it’s that far.

Yeah, it was. But it was worth the boat trip wasn’t it? The wind, the smell of the sea, the sky, blue everywhere…

I lost my cap.

Well that’s your own fault for not holding on to it. I told you over and over you should hold on to it.

You could have spoken louder.

Its common sense isn’t it? I bought you that as well.

I made up for you didn’t I?

Yeah. I haven’t had McDonalds’s in a long time. Hahaha.

……………

This is the first time we all have ever done this together. It really is fun. I mean, no parents, just you and your friends. You really were telling the truth. Hahaha.

What, you thought I was lying? I told you it would be worth your while. Only you kept on saying oh, I don’t want to. What if this, what if that… now look who’s smiling all the time?

Can’t I? Hahaha. I had the greatest time of my life. Why wouldn’t I be smiling?

Well, I’m just glad you had fun. Really?

Yeah. Makes it all the more worthwhile for all that effort in trying to persuade you into coming here.

Yiiihhhhh~ I thought you really meant it there. But I did!

Hahaha.

……………………………

I wish he was here right now… It would’ve been so much more fun if he was here. He really knows how to have a good time. And all this fun we could have had together.

You miss him?

Yeah… but at least he told me he’ll propose to me as soon as he got back. That’ll make things more “official”. That gives me something to look forward to!

Did he? Good for you then.

Hey... something wrong. No. Why?

Dunno. You kinda spaced out a bit just now. Was I? My mind was somewhere else just now.

That got me thinking. When exactly are you going to get a girlfriend?

Why ask that question all of a sudden?

Just suddenly crossed my mind. Haven’t found a girl who can steal that lion heart of yours?

Well… not really.

Not really?? Really?! Wowwww! I thought no one could have attracted you even the least bit. Who’s the lucky girl then?

Nah, not gonna tell you. Awww, cmonnnn.

No, seriously. Im not gonna say anything. And she probably wouldn’t want me anyway.

No girl can resist you, you know. I have lots of girl friends who keep bugging me, asking me for your phone number and your email.

Did you tell them then? Yeah. Cos some of them look like good matches to you.

If that’s what you think then I’m not interested. You always pick the wrong type of girls.

Every girl is the wrong type to you. You just can’t settle for one nice girl and stick to her.

You know I never had a girlfriend before.

Really? How about that girl the other day you were with at the mall? What girl?

You know. The one in West Street with you. I was gonna watch a movie, and I saw you in there with her.

She was stalking me, and stuck to me till I had to be harsh to her. What did you do?

Said that I’m not interested in her, she’s the most boring person I ever met, and although she’s cute but she certainly isn’t my type.

That’s really mean of you. What happened then?

Got slapped. Hahahaha.

It wasn’t my fault. She’s the one who stalked me.

Well, you are pretty cold hearted on women. Not everyone.

Cos I’m your friend from childhood, dummy. Of course you can’t be cold to me. If you are then I won’t ever speak to you again.

Hahaha. You know I won’t. Anyway, who is this girl you fancy?

Are you still getting on with this? Let’s just drop it okay?

Not until you tell me who she is. Why are you so curious anyway?

Cos I know you since we were small. It’ll be good to finally see you going out with someone other than me. And no girl ever won your heart before.

You’re being too dramatic.

Cmoooonnnnnnn~ just tell meee. What’s so hard about it?

You won’t understand.

How do you know I wouldn’t? I just do.

Yeah, Mr. Know-it-all. And since when I never understand your problems? I’m always there for you aren’t I?

Yeah, true. Still, I’m not gonna tell you.

You are such an ass. Hahaha.

You got me all curious now. I’m not gonna let this go you know, so might as well tell me now.

Not now, alright.

If not now, when? We’re not gonna see each other in a veerryyy long time after this you know.

Well… Just tell me. Pleeeaaaseee~?

… alright alright. But promise me you won’t be over reactive later.

Why would I be over reactive?

Hey, I know you. You get all perked up over things like this. More than you necessarily should.

Hahaha. Alright, I promise. Well, here goes…

You don’t have to be so nervous. Hahaha.

Wait… they’re playing a song now. Another acoustic.

Heyyyyy~ this is that songgg. I love this one!

Care for a dance then?

I didn’t know you can dance. You don’t know half the things about me.

Just don’t stamp on my shoes. They’re brand new.

I bought them for you, silly. Oh yeah. Hahaha.

Anyway…

His hands… they’re so… so warm. Now that I think of it, he never touched me before. His grip on me… that’s so… soft…maybe this is why everyone’s wanted him so much.

Sigh…

He really can dance. If only he can dance like this. I would ask him to dance to this song with me everyday. Hahaha.

It’s such a perfect night. Why can’t it not be that way…? This so sucks…

Why is his heart thumping so hard? He can’t be that nervous can he?

So warm… I’m not gonna be able to stand this. Her hands… so soft…

He looks so handsome tonight… why haven’t I notice it before? It’s probably cos of the suit… makes him look smarter than he already is. Hahaha.

So beautiful… so near, and yet so far away.

All the guys are watching… this is soooo weird.

It’s cos of you… you’re so stunning under the moonlight.

[end part 1]

With thoughts

With all that's been happening. I do hope this time around you'll stay.

No more of the foolish fights and battles.

No more of those unnecessary exchange of words that were created by lies.

I want to rest in peace. This time around.

Mungkin kini ku akan tenang disampingmu

[izati]

New Year.

This is a really late post for the greeting the New Year, 2010. It's better late than never.

What was great about last year. I guess, I have to say about the most part of last year. From the start of it, Jan 2009 till June 2009. Twas great. I am greatly missing those moments where I feel that I can fly freely without noticing the consequences. Without thinking about the consequences.

All great dreams has come to an end. Sadly.

The year began well 2009. Ended with a crash.

That's all in the past now. I sense a new direction for me in the year 2010. Start anew. Turn over a new leaf. Let the past be a lesson. Let it not bring yourself down. The future not depends on what happened in the past. It depends on the decisions that we make out of it. :)

Set sail for the bright new future that's ahead.

-izati-

Mon Coeur

All I ask from you is to be truthful. Untuk kau selalu setia.

I ask from you to be there for me, especially for the times I need you the most.

Saat diriku luka. When my world seem to come to an end.

My promise, is to take care of you. From your waking days to your sleeping nights.

Be it in your dreams and reality world
I will always be there for you. In life now and thereafter.

Jangan engkau pergi tinggalkan diriku.

I know I'm just a weak being. Yang selalu jatuh. Unlike, you, able to withstand anything.

I'm nothing compared to you. When you appeared, all I can do is run. Sadly, when I stopped running. You decide to pretend and move away. You gave up.

This is as heart full as I can do here.

I've tried to do the right thing. Asked myself, if it's really the right thing to do. Asked if it's really meant for me to keep. Meant for me to fight. Meant for me to prove. When I try to forget. Once more, when I try to run away. Things and paths just seems to cross again. I've tried avoiding. I've tried blocking. I've tried ignoring, though it hurts me doing so.

In my confusion, path just seemed to cross again. Right now, my only fight is to get into the right path. I'm only searching for the truth.

All I can do now, is hope for the better. I cannot, and for will ever, know if the thing that I'm doing is the right thing to do. All I know, when that thing feels right. When that thing feels surreal. When that thing feels forever. You should cherish it. Not to question it. Not to doubt it.

[izati]

Ne me quitte pas

Tu me manque beacoup. Take time to realise, I am by your side. I'm right here. In front of you. I can't keep on spelling it out for you.

Est-ce que tu m'entend? We don't have to wonder, if we missed out on each other. Because that's the reality right now. I've been waiting. But, I can't keep on spelling it out to you.

Mon etoile d'espoir, ne me quitte pas, s'il vous plait.

Di sebalik kesulitan ada kebaikan.

-izati-

Mimpi

Satu mimpi yang indah.

Telah diriku miliki.

Mengapa sukar untuk ku.

Buat mimpi itu selamanya.

Sudah lama ku mencarinya.

Hati ku pun terbuka.

Tapi mengapa akhirnya.

Hati ku yang terluka.

Mimpi itu indah buat ku.

Mengapa sukar bagi ku.

Buat mimpi itu selamanya.

Setelah diriku memilikinya.

Sukar buat ku.

Melupakan apa yang tercipta.

Mimpi yang ku alami.

Mimpi yang terindah.

[izati]

Mon Etoile D'espoir

Ecoute moi, Mes amis.

Ecoute moi, chere etoile d'espoir.

Je suis dans la mer du peur.

Je ne comprendre pas pourqoui je suis ici.

Chere Etoile D'espoir, je me suis mourir du chargin.

Chere Etoile D'espoir. Je suis mort.

Chere Etoile D'espoir, Montrez moi la lumiere.

Chere Etoile D'espoir, Je suis peur.

Chere Etoile D'espoir. Aidez moi. Sil vous plait.

Chere Etoile D'espoir. Je suis Perdu.

Chere Etoile D'espoir. Je besoin de toi.

Ne me quitte pas sil vous plait.

Hungry

I can't pretend that everything is the same. I can't keep on pretending that I'll be okay. Because I'M not.

I had enough of these foolish games. I can't pretend that I not missing every part of it. Because I DO. I MISS it A LOT.

I want the emotional yo-yo ride to stop. I WANT to go back in time where it seemed like everything was finally going my way. The way it is suppose to be.

I'm hungry for those times. I WANT TO GO BACK. I want things to go back to normal. I'm hungry to go back.

Is it wrong to want? Is it wrong to fight for what I think is right? Is it wrong?

Isn't it in nature to go against what's give to us? Isn't is nature, to fight for what we want?

Call me insane. BUT I'm hungry.

Jangan ada erti mengalah

Of course there would be those small group of people mistakenly analyze that phrase differently to what I meant by it. I'm here to say exactly what in mind.

All theses questions starting with the "what if's" drives me crazy. I've come to a point where, I "just do". Yeah sure, I'll ask a few people if it's the sensible thing to do. But that does not mean I won't do it. It'll just delay my course.

I'm not giving up. But that's up to the rest to realize that I'm still here.

I've never gave up. But only time will decide.

I will not give up. But that's just me being optimistic.

[izati]